woke up at 12pm today.had lunch and bathed..went downstairs to study my ss.cant study at home..lols..tend to see my lovely bed and start thinking tt i'm tired..lols..hallucinating..=P..going to J8 later..all alone to get pens and my beloved eraser is missing..i need it badly.hais..
watched a korean show last night..LOVERS' CONCERTO.veh complicating story but i suppose it's a sad story.hahas.thank goodness i didn't understand it or i'll be crying my eyes out..bleahs..


yes..for him..on my tag..i was trying to tell him not to tag such private things there.in case ppl who dont know him thinks he's stalking me or something.he's not ok..he's just xpressing his thots in my tag.i really hope he'll carry on with his life n come to realise tt i'm not a beautiful person in heart.not a gd stead.and hopefully.i'll be able to accept him better aft my Os.but i still hope he'll change.
in e past..he wud think of surprises to make mi happy.when we're shopping he'll enter shops with me.pick clothes for mi.when i like somthing n nv buy them.he'll secretly buy it for me..ep-playboy bag.but now.he always leave mi to shop in a shop alone n he stands outside.nv looked as thou he really wanna shop with mi.maybe he's tired of shopping with mi.i feel tt i shud shop alone.it's better..at least i wun fee guilty of torturing him by forcing him to shop with mi.if he wants to make mi happy by doing things i like.he shud do his very best like he totally loves it.or else i just end up feeling guilty n nothing else.no more sweet surprises for a long time.and i mean really long time.u noe when i go out.i'll kip my eyes open n take note of things he like and maybe buy it for him if i have e $.but he.i go into some shops alone n i noe i always seem to like almost everythng.but hey.tt'sto get ur attention..hais.recently i hardly address things tt i like to him anymore.coz he'll ask if i have $ not.i'm not asking him to buy it or anything lo.and althou i noe he was kidding but i feel as if he's implying tt i like to spend his money lo.i dont ok.and he is not flexible lo.if i'm late.he'll complain.if he's late.i dun even ask for a sorry from him lo.and he is always thinking tt i'm such a flirt.u think i'm e founder of playboy is it?i noe i like playboy.but i'm not a flirt.i suck in flirting n besides..i dun qualify to flirt.i dun fall in love easily ok.i'm too fat to flirt anyway.rather use those times to slim down..it hurts to know tt ur bf doesnt understand u n thinks tt u're a flirt or something.
to guys out der..have confidence in ur gf.n u noe.every little things can make we girls upset..we're super sensitive.dun say things n den imply tt u r joking..it doesnt help.we are particular abt how u see us.coz we present our very best to u..unlike u guys.man..i think i shud be a lesbian la.since guys just dun understand how i feel.and after 2 yrs of relationship he still think i'll leave him for other guys.other girls may be flirts but not mi.u shud noe better la.and even if i go with other guys it'll be his fault.pushing mi to my limits..but i'm sure tt tt guy i left u for will be someone who trust me n knows exactly how much i love him tt i wud nv leave him for other guys..and guys..pls..kip to ur promises too.girls hate to be disappointed coz we give our best to u.and of coz hope we'll receive the best from u..
ok..end my speech..going j8 now..tatas