suppose to go shopping yesterday..with my mummy but decided not coz of some misunderstanding which is already solved now..kekes..went to jam's house instead to try her cooking..the girl can cook man! watched tv n left for j8 with jam and julia..took fotos and julia cut her hair..so pretty...so gay~~~... =P
went back to her house then and played "stress" using uno cards..i went all kuku..so thrilling~! lols..we all went crazy..jam had a fashion show and julia..the long hair soul..lols..and i..the hysterical slow monster..lols.. =P
went home to have dinner then..he called last night too talked..almost patch but didnt..

was woken up by a phone call asking mi to go for 2nd interview..was suppose to go bugis n orchard for interview but sincee that seem of a higher chance coz it's already 2nd interview..so i went..took a cab down..actually..i watched "dono what to date my teenage daughter"..was a sad episode..cried..lols..

all went well for the interview..made a new friend..she's frm china..all alone in singapore..we got along quite well even thou she was 20+ lols..i'm so friendly rights??.. *wink wink*..i just know tt..


the job had a mixture of male n female environment..by right..was allowed to work in female environment coz didnt want him to feel insecure..but i realised..i like this job n i'm interested in it..cant possibly give it up just for e sake of letting him feel secured..but i was selfish for tt..thinking of my own welfare..i didnt allowed him to work in k-box in the past coz got girls and saw there as a complicated working environment..now that i wanna work in a place i like..i realised how he felt then.i felt selfish.wanted to tell him tt i've thot thru it to not tie him down n bent on him to work only in a male environment..but he instead said tt watever i wanna do den he can do..if i dont wanna do then he also cant do..quite true..it was only after i experienced the feeling myself tt i decided to allow him..was selfish indeed.really very selfish of mi..but how wud i know how it wud be if i nv experience such situation b4??again..i shudnt have sstopped u when i dono the really consequences and ur thoughts and ur feelings..i'm so sorry..i mean..i am really sorry..he previous entry made him felt like a baddie..but tt wasnt my intention..i was trying to explain the reason for changing..sorry if u felt bad..but i've nv blamed u b4..

and..i was the one who became over protective over him first..coz i felt insecure..even if u leave mi one day..u have nth to lose..but mi?i'm on the losing end..i'm sorry..and now..i really know the feeling of being too tied up..and realised tt u need to breathe too now tt i feel tt i need to breathe too..yes..another selfish act..allowing u to have freedom only when i myself wanted it..yes..i'm selfish but if i had known of this feeling earlier..i wudnt have been so protective over you..or control u..i'm sorry..