have been busy this whole week going out with my dearest jamie..lols.we went to sing K till so high lahs.lols.also went for roti prata session with bel n her too.yummms!!went to her hse too last saturday i think.play pool and play.gambled..=X.gambling is like so over right since it's not CNY.but who cares.bleahhs=PP
met jamie on thursday. went to bugis.i bought clothes frm e-base.nv knew i could wear ebase clothes lols.guess this edition of clothes more simple.not so streetstyle.=))
finally! dear said tt the blouse i bought was nice.so long since he last said tt the things i buy is nice.lols.wat can i say.now got taste le mahs.lols.=x
didnt walk finish ICON coz dear fang gong le so i quickly took cab to his hse.he was upset.felt least important.he's jealous of jamie lahs.lols.coz i've spent more time with her than i'm with him.hahas.crazy boy.
stayed home the whole day yesterday.so guai??nope.i was just too disappointed to go out.woke up at 8.15am.deciding whether to go online to check my postings not.to mi tt was like sending myself to death sentence coz i dun even know where i'm going.but i went to check in the end coz sam sms-ed mi.lols.yeahs.disapointment.didnt get into my first choice.went into my 6th choice.was damn upset lahhs.but by late evening,come to think abt the course i got.it was not bad lahs.maybe i'm fated to study courses tt my dad n uncle is in.lols.it runs in the family??..well.anyhow.i'm in the same poly as dearest jamie!i would like to appeal.but i need to find out if i'm even eligible for certain courses not.we'll just take each step at a time.felt veh steadless ytd.no one there for mi when i'm feeling so down.but at least my dad n jamie comforted mi and even help mi sort my thoughts out on wat to do next.i wish to be in the same course as jamie but i wudnt just go to a course just to be with jamie.my future lehhs.but it seems both of us have similiar interest in courses! =))

in the past..example pri sch.when all of us took our PSLE results.they somehow promised to keep in touch..to be friends always.but i don't really seee it happening.only some.whom i can say cant be best friends le.i dono anything in their life neither do they.there is somehow a barrier btw us le.only way to stay friends always i guess is to be always be with one another.even if we went to a same sch but not same class.the bond wont be strong either.dun blame them for anything.shud ust take it lightly.ppl have to move on.so y dun i?
but somehow.i miss them.miss our silly jokes and cute nicknames.they'll always be gd friends in my memories.and of coz i seem to worlds apart frm them.they're all smart.all heading for JCs.i even harbour thoughts of possibilities tt we may be in the same schools again aft our separation frm secondary schs.but nahhs.i guess no good friend of mine frm my pri sch went to poly.anyhow.i'm still happy.happy for them.i'm unlike them.nv so strong nv tt determine.mayb the lost of friendship is the price tt i pay for not being serious and determined.

history repeated itself in my secondary sch.even thou we have not graduated.the separation was man-made.not a separation caused by nature-going into diff schs.
it was one big thing tt i've regretted.but i thought to myself again.she was nv mine.nv my best friend.all along it was someone else who was her best friend.we were close but not coz we're best friends.it's coz we went to the same class aft sec2.but i dun blame her.her best friend was a much better girl than i am.in fact i blame myself for not opening up to her.but come to think of it.mayb i wasnt in the wrong for i wasnt even her best friend.but i nv told her b4.she had always been my bst friend since the day i entered nan chiau.she was frank.cranky and funny.the best friend i would keep in my memories for life.hardly went out with her but the time spent with her carried the best memories. =)).i really do miss her.even thou i know she wudnt miss mi.she has so many great ppl ard her.happy for her yet sad for myself for not being able to be the ones by her side now.wat can i say? ppl do move on.so must i.even thou i lost her.at least she has good friends by her side now.making it so much easier to let go of the friendship i had with her.
someone else came by.she too lost a friend.mayb it was my fault coz i was kinda harsh on her best friend.tt i think made her keep her distance away frm us.but i'm glad tt my new found friend stayed by my side always.i guess it's really sad to lose someone.be it thru death or separation.but somehow.i believe i'll find some one true as my best friend.i have few friends but i have gd friends.

that new found friend.you know who euu are.after what happened aft all graduation..i'm really afraid to lose a friend like you like how i lost my other friends.tt's one reason y i really wish to be in the same course as you.i do not trust distance to create a stronger bond.maybe i'm paranoid but.tt's one thing i fear of.if we have to separate.become a hi bye friend.i only wish for one thing.you to find a better friend by ur side and sometimes...miss mi..=))

aft so much talking.to round it up.life's like that.no one can escape this horrible truth tt friendship will be lost thru distance.only fortunate ones don;t experience such stuff.and i believe in wat my dearest friend said-friendship remains strong only when both parties make an effort.it's just like love.it has to be two-way.not only one person making an effort coz tt's totally useless.your heart might be opening up to another.but tt other heart refuses to open up.so what's the use?tt other heart will nv receive ur msg or ur love.so it's pointless to be the only one putting effort into any relationship or friendship.

dun say i'm bad or sadistic...ppl who are so glad to enter their chosen polys or JCs.be ready to lose friends who did not enter the same sch u're in..BAHHHS!


machiam having speech liddat.lols..=PP