hmm.feeling better today.didnt go out on saturday.only went for a short walk with my darling daddy!felt so much better after tt even thou we didnt like talk a lot.well.i talk a lot.so if it isnt a lot..it's lots..=PP
finished watching the SECRET LOVERS VCD lers.hmmm.the show not bad lahhs.but no impact on mi.lols.ok.maybe a bit.
finich watching FULL HOUSE on saturday night.WOOooo! i so love tt show can!Rain is cute lahs.the girl is so pretty also.sad tt i've watched finish.now got another show to watch but i think no show can beat FULL HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!
feel my love and excitement over FULL HOUSE?..lalalas.=))
met dear on sunday.he went for his bike practice and we went to bugis.had dinner.did my pedicure and went home.how exciting??.well..dear tired mahs.hais.as usual.but at least he still went to bugis with mi..
woke up at 7.30am to wish dear good luck for his bike exam today!if he passes..u ppl will hardly see mi taking public transport le.save ez link card money.lalalas.
really hope he passes.think we'll be having hi-tea after tt at dono where lehhs.lols.not sure.=PP
but i have to go home early today..got lessons at night.kekes.
thou i'm feeling better but yet i still feel veh empty.why?i've got my parents..my family and my dear by my side yet i still feel lonely and empty.especially when i'm with him.
i somehow prefer to miss him and think of him than to meet him.dear always seem so perfect in my thoughts...why cant he be as perfect as he is in my thoughts...?
but i have to understand tt no one is perfect..but near perfection is still possible..hais.
had a tiff with him yesterday.over smt which i think was kinda small.but it was my fault lahhs.just hate myself for destroying such a happy day with my bare hands and...i really regretted speaking.why cant i speak freely?hais.every small thing tt i say can cause an explosion in u..i shud just be mute lahhs.hais.
having all the sad songs to accompany mi.guess i'm lost in sad songs and VCDs bahs.think those are the only things tt can relate to mi.everything else just seem to be invisible to me.why am i feeling this way?..too upset over the postings?not really.than wat's the other thing???..

sometimes..i think it's useless working so hard in life.pia for O level cert..A level cert..only to end up with the same cert as everyone else..the death cert..so so pia mia for wat?..hais.just feel so moodless whenever i think of this.how i wish everyone can live forever.but i noe nth lasts forever.i cant imagine my life w/o my loved ones.i'll be even more lost than i am now.mayb i'll even go crazy or suffer depression.y am i brought into this world only to see sadness??..
tot abt lots of things in the bus while going to meet dear..tot abt jamie's helpful mother..she allowed mi to feel so contented only by just thinking abt her kind <3 really seem to brighten up my heart somehow.if only everyone was like her.she reminded mi of kind hearted ppl being rewarded..she was rewarded with a happy and loving family.i guess tt's all we ppl really need in life.other than $$$ that's enuff to make ends meet.so envious of her...
tot of the death cert issue too.if everyone were to think like mi.i guess everyone wud be just sitting ard for maybe 70yrs doing nth coz they already noe no matter wat they'll die.nahhs.this cannot happen.daddy said tt since all of us already noe wat's ahead of us..the more shud we strive in life in order to experience the beauty of it.this way..we'll die with happy memories frm our lives.if we die without even trying to live life to the fullest.we'll die with an empty heart.so..just live life to the fullest!




our life is gift frm god..wat we do with tt life is our gift to him.
and my parents did something amazing to change my life.=))