HAPPIE NEW YEAR~!

just came home frm orchard..went there for dinner with hiim and bought my BSB concert tix!..i bought the $70 one..the $95 seats were so lousy..wasnt even facing the seat lohx..he is accompanying mi there..i'm so bloody excited~!

stayed over at his hse yesterday..sorrie jam..didnt stay over at urs coz i really vehh pai sehh and i scared i'm too noisy..mayb CNY i go bug yohh lohs.. =))

yesterday..i woke up..had lunch..went to melissa's house to print pictures of xiaoying n her bf so as to put into the picture frame i bought for her bday..heard she's got an expensive and pretty watch from her bf..so envious ok..

went home..bathed..wrapped up the pressie..packed my stuff n headed out..it was pouring heavily..methim at clementi central..played pool with him n went home..slacked n was looking for places to go..went to central to mit peenis to check out k-box price which was so damn expensive can..
went to play pool..i tell u..i lost every single round~!so throw face..lols..

actually wanna go singing de..den almost wanted to go chiong with ah wee..but hell no..



ah wee brought a slut with him..i dunch care..there's no other words tt i can call her..bloody shit k..
my bf bought a big cup of water..aft smoking she asked if still got water den my bf said dunch have..so obvious tt there's now water lo..when my bf was actually eating the ice in the cup..so she was asking the obvious lohs..nvm..she took the cup and ate ice frm the same spot my bf put his lips at!and give mi tt look..aft tt..she was like so pushy..pushing the cup back to my bf when he already said he dun want..pls lahs..dun want le u still so bloody bu yao lian for wat??..NEH NEH!the whole grp there also not her friend or wat lohs..buey pai sehh meh..drink ppl's drink..CB~!

wandered around..wasnt tt angry until they were about to go chiong and she asked my bf whether he's going not..he going not also not her farking business lohs..den say byebye to my bf..fark her lahs..and my insensitive bf still waved her byebye..even aft knowing tt i bloody and farking hate her to the core le..so i got fed up with him..only aft we went home..coz i kinda forgot abt it half way..

we went home coz really dono where to head for..seriously..i was disappointed..coz i'll have to wait a long time to ton at his hse again..went home..did nth..den suddenly i remembered tt i was angry..so..we quarrelled coz he kept defending himself..

if she's ur friend or ah wee's gf..u wave bye nvm lohs..but who the fark is she to you???u scared ur friends think u dao..den no nid care abt how i feel when i already told u i hate her le lohs..now she must be thinking u are the one who will be willing to flirt with her..proving tt she's prettier and can get u lohs..fark~!

well..he was so angry yest lohs..angry wat??i'm supposed to be angry lohs...was really terrible..and i felt vehh guilty for creating so much chaos..but i just nv felt so threatened b4..felt as thou he wasnt loyal to mi..not faithful..if it's mi..i wun even be bothered abt tt person lo..if u tell mi u haate tt person..but u didnt care..still so friendly towards her..felt like i'll be losing him to a much prettier and slimmer girl..haiis..farking hate this feeling lahs


he gaved in n i ren cuo..den u no nid mehhs??morning wake up like nth happen..back to normal..cant u do things to make mi feel more secured??didnt want to tell tis to u coz scared u stressed or wat lohs..aft each quarrel..i expect even more frm u..now..thinking abt wat happen..i still feel he's in the wrong lohs..i'll nv forget wat happen last night de..made mi feel tt u're just like any other guy..who simply also like girls to flirt with u..makes u feel attractive right??..haiis..u dun seem to belong to mi anymore


althou everything appears to be ok..when we're together..but when i'm alone..i'm being reminded of what happened and just cant seem to forgive u..i know u've tried to make mi feel better..mayb it's just not enough for mi..i feel so damn zi bei now!feel like breaking down now but who will ever care??u just slp..yes.tired slp mah..u nv go think abt wat happened lohs..just slp..i cant get to slp now..everything just appears b4 mi lohs..just felt like u're just like other guys..will nv say no to other girls





dont wish to blame youu but i just cant help it..when i'm alone..i see ur mistakes appear b4 mi..u just dont give mi the feeling tt i'm the only one in ur world..so wat if u always said tt?last night was an evidence le..althou u didnt mean it..it means it's already in you..to not to be extra careful with my feelings..haiis..u dont make me feel important and significnt nor needed..maybe tt's y..i show more love to jam..and not u..coz she shows mi her care n love..and makes mi feel imp..unlike u..just feel so insignificant when i'm with u..last night's matter proved mi right..u must be saying to urself..den be with jam lahhs..but cant u see?i only love you and i just nid u..i just nid u to show ur love towards mi more openly..not only when we're abt to break..it'll be too late one day if i really mean to break with u lohs..too late..





jamie..thnx for ur blog stuff..i feel so needed and significant..the feeling i've nv felt for a long time now..i feel so important..u made mi feel so confident of our future friendship together~! i so love youu..promise to share ur woes with mi in future..i may not be a gd listener but i sure do care..just duno how to express it to u..may not be a good advisor but hey..at least i advise u rite.other ppl u think i care mehh????.. =))
i also noe i cant console ppl..but i've really tried my best when it comes to consoling u..god took a best friend of mine away..only to bring mi a better best friend..which is u..i'm sure..memories with gladys were created over time..u n mi will have better memories too.coz i believe our friendship lifespan will be much longer..=)).. thou i tend to neglect u for hiim but i hope u'll noe tt i do neglect him for u too..i've always tried my very best to be by ur side just like how u were towards mi.. <3
love u lots