went for an interview on monday in thomson plaza..hais..went there..the lady asked me about three questions and said she'll contact mi.i guess she wasnt very impressed by mi..well.i've got nth to impress her either..hais..

the thomson lady didnt call mi and yesterday was hari raya haji..i think..
woke up late and dear was upset..i thru tantrums thinking he didnt care or bother to come and find mi..when in actual fact he didnt mind..blame it to the lack of sleep i guess.. hais..

i had lunch at home n headed out to orchard to mit dear..but guess wat? our main purpose to go there was to get my i-pod shuffle done..halfway there in the mrt..i suddenly realised i did not bring my shuffle out..hais..been getting so forgetful and careless these days..guess it's coz i havent been studying..i feel so stupid and feel like a bum..hais..so useless too.. =((

we walked ard far east and guess wat?! i found myself a job at LOVE POTION..now that made my trip or shud i say our trip to orchard all so worthwhile..went back to dear's hse..slept all the way to 7.30pm..woke up..had popiah and rojak for dinner..yummy but i felt so sinful..how?after eating it..i felt a layer of fat forming ard my waist..hais..

last night..dear couldnt sleep i thot it's coz he's worried abt mi entering a new environment and mi changing..but in actual fact he was worried abt not having enough money to go bangkok with mi..which we've planned long ago..dear..it's not i dun care abt the trip nor is it coz i dun wish to go on the trip at all..i'm all so looking forward to it just like you..!

just wanted you to know tt no money den dun go..no need to get so stressed over it..no need to scared no chance right??we only in our teenage years wat..=))

well..instead of making dear feel more relaxed..i made him more irritated..hais..why cant i be the one who can make him smile when he's troubled??..felt so unsuccessful being his gd stead..hais.. ='(

frm last night..i've decided to change..be the goodie girl tt i was two yrs back..!
i guess i've changed coz i felt like i dun fit into his world..i wanna fit into his world..changed and became such a horrible stead that i cant find my olld self back..the girl evryone dote on.. haiss...i wanna be pampered..loved and nice to everyone..guess my job will help mi lots..coz i'll have to learn how to deal with customers politely..hope i'll become a better person..I AM SO DETERMINED



i know it's kinda too late but..hey..nvm right..so here comes my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION>>

go church every sunday with my dear cousin melissa and if i have to work..i'll go there alone on my off days.write my diary there with a peaceful mind

be more determined decisive focus nice obedient appreciative understanding

give in to ppl

no vulgarities

think of others before thinking for myself

stay the same..dun change into a worse person..stay faithful to my papa mama and dear

not to be so picky

accept others

accept things and directions god has given me coz he knows what i deserve and wat's best for me
accept it and work hard on wat's given or paved for me.. =))


and of coz..be slim.. i wanna be weighing 43 kg!


so wish mi luck~! <33s