1/2 of me want you back
1/2 of me is stopping me
i don't know what's holding me back
maybe god is telling me to forget you
even though i don't wish to


if i could
i hope i didn't see your friendster
maybe it's the friendster affair that's stopping me
stopping me from trusting you again


maybe you were telling the truth
but why can't i believe you


maybe my heart has been lied to too many times

i know i lied too but
2 and a 1/2 yrs together
why must you lie for your friend


of all things
of all time
you chose to lie to me now
when our relationship is at stake
after being together for so long

i've stopped lying
and you're starting to lie


i'm so used to have you controlling me
so used to not being with other guys
used to rejecting guys for your sake
used to neglecting my parents for you


used to your funny jokes
used to wake you up by hugging you in your sleep
used to eat lu mian with you
used to meeting you on sundays


i can't deny the fact that i did try to forgive you
and yearn to be with you again


but why
why must you lie to me for your friend
something you would never do to me



now i'm left here alone to spent sundays w/o you
the first sunday and i'm already feeling lonely

thou i seem ok
i don't feel ok inside
don't wish to appear weak

dearest jamie
thanks for being there all these while
it must have been hard on you
and i will be strong and you sure on buying me vitamin C?
i'll get well soon.don't worry
one fine day..i'll be a happy girl again ='( (really looking forward to being happy again)
back to irritate you with my stupid and cold jokes
meanwhile just spare me for my spastic smiles
and
I LOVE YOU
after all that has happened
you've been trying to be there whenever i needed someone ='))
too bad you shoulder too boney for me to cry on =x