ok..i've spoken to my grp mates.they said it's truly abt me being too competitive and everything.n they dun hate me.ok.i'm a happier girl now! =)).indeed i was being paranoid.lols.=pp.mayb we just couldnt communicate well tt day.lols.amelia was such an agitated girl tt day.tt's y tt someone shouted at me.lols.so..let's say i deserve it?..i dono..hmmm..

catch up on new matters thru blog hopping.and jam..sorry for not being able to pei u lately.even cant pei u go home.sorry girl! even if u dun call me no more.i wont blame u and i cant blame u coz i've been neglecting u.sorry..i'm just terribly bz..so once got time it's either him or u.when i've the time..u'd be still in school!hais.just hope our love for each other wont fade.hahas!

sam..seems u're back w/ him..saw it on jam's blog.good!=))
mayb u tot u're better w/ him..mayb aft being back w/ him again..u'd realise..u're the best w/ him! i truly hope things have changed le.and tt he'd treat you many many times bettter than b4.i wish tt u'll receive happiness this time round! and really..i believe u made a decision aft much tot.so i guess u're really serious and if it still doesnt work out..(touchwood)..just tell urself u've done ur very best le!

leeling! thanks for everything..who is leeling?? well..she's a bubbly girl who has a kind heart..she stood by me when i was down and shecomforts me even thou both of us are upset.so i wanna say a big thank you to her.she gave me a feeling like..i can rely on her..even if the whole class hates me she'll stay by me!i'm so glad.=)).leeling~! thank you! muahhs!


4.30pm
1. you got great results
2. u're being condemned by others

which would you prefer not to have?..i simple hate being condemned by others..so what if my results are good? it doesnt mean a thing to me. and i seriously dare say that i've worked hard for it and god has given me my fair share of what i deserve.


why?..why is my grp members changing to another grp?..leaving me and leeling behind..is it just me or is it both of us?i choose to believe it's simply coz of me.and leeling's with me in this coz she's closer to me.how would i know?..everyone sms her to apologise.. is it even fair for her?..hais.i myself felt it wasnt fair for me already..what's more for her?..well..they apologised only to her only coz they've found out how unfair they've been to leeling. and..me? they simply have a problem with me..what problem??..i really dono and would like to know.

the reason gave for changing grps is coz they felt tt WE'RE perfectionists and too competitive.i guess there's more to it. tt reason was made to make it look as thou both leeling and i are in it together so tt we wouldnt or leeling wouldnt feel so upset.i believe there's more on my part alone and they just don wanna say.maybe i'm just being paranoid but try having a grp member shouting into ur face saying ' there must be smt wrong w/ u tt's why we're changing grps!'..see what i mean?

then i wonder..they said so many reasons for changing grps.first they said they wanna try working w/ other members in the class( tt's to hide the real reason which simply couldnt pull everything off).the next minute u said tt u're just adding another member to a grp and not changing grps.what is all these?.. things have come to this stage..why cant u all just open up and say everything truthfully?..no point hiding any truth anymore even thou truth hurts.hiding the truth wont make u look like a better person..

if i could..i wish i didnt appeared such a perfectionist in front of them for i'm really not like that..everyone should know..my secondary friends..pri sch friends.they all know i'm no perfectionist! i guess tt's just an excuse?..i nv knew such excuse can be used as a reason to change grp..whatever?!


jesus loves me and that's all i need..he's love. =)