♥♥♥ ` my love for you;092103

yesterday & today had been a total hell for me
but i know it was worst for baby

& i can't express how happy i am
that we are still together
i'm glad we made up
& how thankful i am to still have baby by my side (:
i promise never again, i'll stay home and be a good housewife xD

through these years, i know it's common to have fights
but yesterday was one fight that i'll never forget
i never knew i could be this angry
never knew i would do the things i did

everything you said simply made me feel like i am not part of your life anymore
it's sad to say that you don't understand me after so many years
i am starting to feel like i am nothing but a burden to you
& i cant go on feeling like this, feeling the pain

the reason why i flared up was because i missed you badly ):

finally met up with my lovelies at bugis
satisfied my cravings for steamboat!
all i ate was mushrooms & veggies (:
at the end of the meal
i felt shiiiiioooooooooooooooookkkk xD
went home after the meal since everyone was tired from work & had to go home early?

earlier in the day, i was surprised bestie smsed me asking me out for kgardens
i thought she had quit the habit of going for karaoke, hahas
we got the early bird package (: $24 for 2pax
sang all the old school songs that we used to sing back in secondarysch days
from michael jackson to jason mraz, backstreet boys, M2M, trademark, MLTR all the way to westlife medley which ended our singing session with a blast! (:

had fun today & the only thing that was missing from this perfect day was my baby ):
if not, the day would be puuurrrfffeeeccto!

"then 'Sai Ko' Tiz & Tiff to come over from St 17"
from some blogger's blog.

BIG LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLS.
what is " sai ko" ??????

met baby after work on 13th may wednesday, headed down to bugis cos i was craving for korean food (: did a little shopping & i enjoyed the time spent together cos everything went smoothly, unlike in the past where small hiccups may simply spoil our day. yeap, it was a peaceful evening out with baby (: headed to his hse & left for home the next day when he went to work (:

met baby in town on friday afternoon cos he didnt go to work & we had a great time too. did some shopping again & we finally tried pepper lunch, such noobs i know! LOLS. it was not so bad afterall, i just didnt like the feeling of being in the smoky outlet. walked around & did some Coach survey before heading home. jerie& kids came to stay!

anyway, i went home on saturday. received lots of mail; ntu acceptance letter, my agent's contract & some other stuffs. i got pretty confused if i should try ntu, but after giving much thought i realised that i have already accepted nus. so no turning back since the ntu letter came so late. was supposed to meet my bestie & gang for samantha's bday celebration but i lost my phone! so i couldnt reach any of them cos i simply am bad at remembering phone numbers. stayed home instead. met baby on sunday & we caught Angels&Demons tgt with zx & ivan. we were allocated the 2nd front row, i thought i would die in the cinema due to neck cramps but the show was so intriguing i didnt feel anything.

& i decided to break this evil blue card of mine! decided to put my spendthrift habit to an end. blame it on nets!

i cannoooot wait to meet up with my lovelies this friday for dinner? i pray that we'll be having steamboat, so i can slurp up all the soup & conquer all the veggies! xD

it's sweet when baby gives me gifts on special occasions
& even sweeter when he surprises me with small gifts on normal days
it's the little things one does to put a smile on my face (:
thanks baby!
p.s i am employed! like finally. shall start work only on the 15th june (: i love the smell of money

went to collect my graduation robe on friday 8th may 09 with my lovelies before heading down to gardens for dinner at thaiexpress & kgardens together with baby & friends.
zx was so noisy & hysterical that leeling couldnt tahan him. LOLS. no more 2nd time i guess? hahas. leeling&meiqi cabbed home while we headed back to the same old pub to finish up the balance. i swear i am sick of that place!
went to baby's place, slept & this time i wasnt drunk! yayness, i hate the feeling of being dead drunk & vomitting like nobody's business.
woke up in the evening, met zx for dinner and we went chinatown for a while, then to westcoast rc for the boy's billard session before fetching ivan & we headed to jurong birdpark for prawning.
it was the most pathetic prawning session ever. 3 rods, 90dollars, 3 hours & only 4 prawns. plainly cos the place was packed with people since it was a public holiday! we ended up eating our 3 hours away. went back, slept & woke up early around 11am to prepare for mothers' day lunch with baby & family. then baby&i went to marina square ourselves, had margaritas & waffles over at changing appetites. headed down to liangcourt shortly for my first trial of brazilian waxing!
i was dead nervous and scared lahhs! but it turned out not as bad as i thought. LOLS. the lady even said tt people commented that it was more painful than giving birth, i swear i almost freaked out upon hearing that. but it wasn't that bad lahs.those jokers! LOLS. had dinner at an italian restaurant which was realllly chhheapp before gg to iguana for some more margaritas (:
then it was home sweet home. planned on gg home on monday morning but i slept all the way till evening & decided to stay for another night at baby's. LOLS. watched amazing race & went ayerrajahfoodcentre for supper. damn damn sinful lahs. i can still feel it in my tummmy!
slept & came home this morning. it kinda feels weird not seeing baby today cos i have been seeing him almost everyday for the past few days!
kinda lonely now that i am back home ):

i have been a total bum since poly ended
and i believe my electrical bills will be increasing
given the fact that i only sleep at 4am in the morning
so means, lights on, aircon, computer or tv on, sometimes radio on too.
so you can imagine how the bill will come up to.
but i can't help it.
maybe cos the days are wayyyyy too hot for me to handle or do anything.

basically, i am so lonely
i have few good friends
and i only enjoy going out with my close friends
but now that everyone is working, i become the only bum around
when i am feeling for shopping, there's no one around to accompany me!
some of them are having school or away on vacation.
i have since become super lazy to even leave the house, let alone going downstairs for some fresh air.
i have officially and fully understood what a couch potato is (:

went out on monday for some interview at the National Heritage Conservation Centre? LOLS, i really do not know what it is called lahs! will be on a one month assignment if all goes well! heard the pay is goooooood (: and since i have thought of just slacking away cos seriously, i am too lazy to start working? LOLS. so a one month assignment would be just nice for me, not too long & not too short (: wish me luck.

am going out tmr to meet my lovelies to collect our graduation robe & have dinner together.
God, it's been like years since i last met up with them cos they are all caught up with work
i am still not sure about the plans after dinner, we'll see (:

28th May shall be our graduation day, and the ceremony is in the morning! & i have yet to receive the tickets or smt? & i still am unsure if my dad is going to attend it. I only remembered the last time daddy saw me going up to stage to receive some prizes was when i top the class for mother tongue. yes, i did even though my chinese now doesnt do any justice for me. well, i swear my written chinese was great in the past until secondary 3 i guess? LOLS
come to think if it, i wish daddy would come for the graduation cos i guess i might feel upset if i see my friends with their parents then & i would start to get emotional. LOLS. well, if my cliques' parents arent attending, it would be easier for me too. still, i hope daddy comes (:

& it feels like just yesterday when i entered singapore poly for orientation, & now without a blink , i'll be taking photographs of myself wearing the robe & taking my diploma! time really do fly. & i feel friggggingggg old! ):

& did i mention? imma gg on a short trip with my lovely lovelies, baby, jerie&gang as well as zx, ivan, yaoyi& wifey. i so cannot wait! travelling with my friends. the first time was secondary 3 to perth with bestie, sam & bellllaaa. i could still remember all the time spent in perth! i really do miss those young days. BAHHHS! i definitely rmb bel licking her cracked lips whilst sleeping on the coach. LOLS & the great and funny mr neo & mrs kang, and also the farm stay where everyone went out in search of jamie's handphone which was later found in the lodge's sofa seat. LOLS, the weather was freaking hot i tell you.everyone return to the lodge as if there was a drought out there. oh, how i miss those days (:

anyhooo, lovelies & i are so gg to win jackpot in the casino so we'll be able to head down to KL for shopppppppppinnnnnggggggg! we can feel it, we know we are so going to win! we can so freaking smell the money. LOLS & who knows, if we're feeling rich i hope we will be able to extend our trip or smt =D but i know it's impossible, everyone's gotta return to work after the 3 days. i hope we'll have hell lots of fun together. xD

p.s am thinking of starting a blog to post pictures of love cos i seriously have tonnes of pictures in my database, thought maybe i should share it with the rest. should i? =/

woah, what a long post! now you know how bored i am