9th FEB 07

a wonderful day spent with BESTIE!

it's great to just hang out.and as always i made her wait like about 2 hours? coz i forgot i was suppose to meet her at 11am.OOps!

it was a fun day and bestie has power legs! she was walking freakin fast can!LOLS

i should go out with her more coz i felt like i lost a kilo after shopping with her! LOLS.

we met at J8 - funan - bugis - orchard! i bought the 2 things on my list using up my last $40! ahahas. i feel so proud of myself coz i bought what i wanted with little amount of cash!

it was a fun day with bestie.never felt this happy for such a long time.maybe i'm used to being happy when with her.coz i feel that since i'm out i shouldn brood over the unhappiness in me.i should just let go else bestie would maybe feel awkward.afterall, i'm sure everyone's used to the spastic and crazy me. i guess bestie would have felt outta place if i'm quiet when with her? or am i really too loud for her??LOLS

somehow, i felt kinda loud yesterday.well as usual, i'm a loud speaker.LOLS.but seriously i'm not usually like that lohs. i'm kinda quiet lately.

happy i may seem but somehow when i'm alone i start feeling really depressed.
sighs!

anyhow,thank you bestie i had a great time yesterday.i hope my craziness wasn't too much for you to accept.haas.seeing you and him so happy and loving really makes me so envious!




seriously, i'd rather be fat just to feel special

and JULIA! you're so smart! i'm superly happy for you, for your A1.. =))


my lover
came to fetch me from wisma to his house
he bought me delifrance baguette from the petrol station for me b4 sending me home.

hugs and kisses are the essentials in a relationship
but when the love is gone,
people tend to, unknowingly,
make sex the most essential element to maintain a relationship
forgetting to plant many hugs and kisses on their partner
how sad is that?



this got me thinking,
what's my ideal kinda life partner?

i rather have many pleasant small surprises than surprises on a special day

coz on that special day, there's some anticipation in me so it won't be a very surprising surprise!

i'd love him to give me many hugs and kisses in a day with intervals

no point kissing for an hour, the sensation fades. a kiss every now and then, is sweeter



with these 2 points, i guess it's enough to make every single girl feel special!

feeling special is very important

without these 2, forget about making me happy!

i feel like a mess!
it's the holidays and i'm so desperate for a damn job
the reasons behind it are positive and i just can't understand why i'm still unemployed!
hais
i've got everything planned out and the start of the plan fails coz i just can't seem to get a JOB!!

hais
JAM
i sorta felt that i have offended you/disappoint you/upset you but girl
i just feel so lost and everything coz everything doesn't seem to go my way
i guess i'm going crazy
i'm so troubled and that is why i can't seem to be there for you coz i can't even do anything to save myself. i feel so useless.
sorry JAM if i made u upset. i'm just so frustrated with life.hais.forgive me k? i still love you and you're still my bestie ok? <33s

LEELING
heys! i've finally updated my blog and i want a job so much that i can just cry! hais.i wish you all the best in getting a job too k? =)

BOY
that's if u ever read my blog
i feel that we're far apart even thou we meet up very frequently
there's just some barrier between us
maybe coz we've made serveral mistakes and have changed in many ways
so much so that we just keep looking back at the good old days and just yearn for it
have you ever thought wouldn't it be nice to renew our love? our 3 yr old love?
i never thought this would come so soon.we've only been together for 3 yrs yet i feel like we've been together for far too long that our love seem to be fading away slowly.

we seriously need to renew our love just like how old couples try to renew heir marriage by going over the edge and doing the extremes for the one they love.
BABY.i've done my best in trying to renew this love.have you?
let's put aside all our past mistakes can start with a fresh new love can we?
coz i love you and really wish to go further with you.
right now we are just going no where!
our love will go no where if we don't do something about it right now!