crapshit! i'm being fired~!

yaya..luff all u want..was fired for leaving work earlier by 30mins..wah liewx..so suay lo..my other colleagues left once two hrs earlier b4 closing she nv kana caught den mi so suay got caught..haiix..never mind la.i was suppose to stop work on CNY eve but now..it's 2 days earlier only..lols..sadness..




I"M SUPER DUPER HAPPY NOW COZ I SAW PICS OF BSB CONCERT ON SOMEONE'S BLOG...I'VE GOT PICS FROM BSB CONCERT~! WAKAKA..AT LEAST GOT SOU HUO!!!!!!! I'M SHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPIIIIEEEE~!





one word to describe the BACKSTREET BOYS-----------> fantabulous~!

21st jan 2006 was mi n dear's 29th month together~!we've had many ups n downs..wish for no more of tt..=))

dear accompanied mi yesterday to BACKSTREET BOYS NEVER GONE TOUR concert~!wakakakaa~!!!!
it was superb..i was practically shivering before they were about to start!almost crieed..if i had bought the $160 tix..i wud have cried..couldnt see their faces from the $70 tix seat..=((..but at least i had dear's company n got to see BSB! daddy gave mi $160 to get the best seats but i used it to buy two $70 tix so as to be able to have dear for company! =))..shud i be happy or sad??..
anyhow they were great..pure singing and dancing..no fancy costumes..well..who needs costumes to amze the audience when they have a great voice??!!kekes..i'm so totally very happy right now..i skipped work today coz ..mayb last night too high le..i always like tt de lehhs..hais..but i think i deserved it aft so much hard work..lols..crap shit lahhs..i was just plain lazy today..=PP
oh..nick was much fatter than he appear on screen..lols.but he's still loved by mi..hahas..coz he's part of the backstreet boys..lalalas..he was cute as a fatty anyway..=))..ahhhs..i cant get over the concert!i so love BSB now~!yeeehahahaha~!!!


I SO TOTALLLY VERY LOVE BACKSTREET BOYS !!!

why??coz they're wonderful! an experience of a lifetime!i've waited for them for 10yrs..and finally they're here to see mi??!!ok..see singapore fans..but..i'm still so happy tt even if i die now..i die happily..=))))))))))!

back after soooooooooooo long..well was busy with my first job!..quite tiring and all i think abt was $$$ and food..i'm such a pig lately..coz when der's no customer i just think of food!!! wakakas..during break time i just munch away happily with my new found friends...lols

talking abt new found friends..i've made quite a few..
my cutie pie partner chermaine whom i heard doesnt talk when she's eating

outfitter girl's yen-another cutie pie with veh cute language and has a mind of her own

outfitter girl's hazel- very the-girl-next-door kind with a sweet smile~!she is very caring and sweet as well and eats veh fast!

outfitter girl's jia yi- the punk and veh IN girl..veh funny also..and always say i slow..but still waits for mi..but she's gone..she'd quit her job liaos..=(

oh yahs..outfitter girls is a label from LA which is situated beside LOVE POTION..i think i made more friends from outfitters than with my partner..i dono..maybe i just love cute ppl~!=pp

i was so busy tt i skipped my dearest friend's birthday celebration...chanel..so sorry ok..
my life for the past week was like- eat slp work..=))..and free time was spent equally with my boy and family~!

i am deciding to work till CNY eve coz the job is so tiring tt i'm constipating~! lols..stress mah..cant have a good shitty life..=((..mayb tt explains for my horrible attitude these days and my tired look..lols..and i cant get enuff slp..when i say enuff i mean at least a full 10 hr slp without having to wake up to pee or drink water or having any dreams..=))


so yahh..i'm damn tired~! and i hate eating outside..i miss my mummy's home cooked food..=((
and..i miss my daddy coz most of the days..when i reach home from work..he's already asleep..so sad rights..tt's y i so totally miss him!i also seem to be neglecting my boy..and i miss my beloved JAM!havent been catching up with her lately..hope she's leading a good life..=))
shall meet up with her aft CNY..i somehow miss NCHS lo..can u believe it??i missing the sch i hated to the core??oh yes..i miss the ppl..the tasty chu mee fen..the toad looking VP and the weird principal..lols..

my secondary life was very happening..as in..many things happen..and i can proudly say..i've experienced many things tt no one could have experienced..=))..i've also learnt to overcome difficulties and appreciate ppl and things ard mi..but thru this learning journey..i've lost many and upset many ppl whom i love dearly..so much up and downs..but life's like that..so watever tt comes..just take it and do the best with wat's left for u..=))

went for an interview on monday in thomson plaza..hais..went there..the lady asked me about three questions and said she'll contact mi.i guess she wasnt very impressed by mi..well.i've got nth to impress her either..hais..

the thomson lady didnt call mi and yesterday was hari raya haji..i think..
woke up late and dear was upset..i thru tantrums thinking he didnt care or bother to come and find mi..when in actual fact he didnt mind..blame it to the lack of sleep i guess.. hais..

i had lunch at home n headed out to orchard to mit dear..but guess wat? our main purpose to go there was to get my i-pod shuffle done..halfway there in the mrt..i suddenly realised i did not bring my shuffle out..hais..been getting so forgetful and careless these days..guess it's coz i havent been studying..i feel so stupid and feel like a bum..hais..so useless too.. =((

we walked ard far east and guess wat?! i found myself a job at LOVE POTION..now that made my trip or shud i say our trip to orchard all so worthwhile..went back to dear's hse..slept all the way to 7.30pm..woke up..had popiah and rojak for dinner..yummy but i felt so sinful..how?after eating it..i felt a layer of fat forming ard my waist..hais..

last night..dear couldnt sleep i thot it's coz he's worried abt mi entering a new environment and mi changing..but in actual fact he was worried abt not having enough money to go bangkok with mi..which we've planned long ago..dear..it's not i dun care abt the trip nor is it coz i dun wish to go on the trip at all..i'm all so looking forward to it just like you..!

just wanted you to know tt no money den dun go..no need to get so stressed over it..no need to scared no chance right??we only in our teenage years wat..=))

well..instead of making dear feel more relaxed..i made him more irritated..hais..why cant i be the one who can make him smile when he's troubled??..felt so unsuccessful being his gd stead..hais.. ='(

frm last night..i've decided to change..be the goodie girl tt i was two yrs back..!
i guess i've changed coz i felt like i dun fit into his world..i wanna fit into his world..changed and became such a horrible stead that i cant find my olld self back..the girl evryone dote on.. haiss...i wanna be pampered..loved and nice to everyone..guess my job will help mi lots..coz i'll have to learn how to deal with customers politely..hope i'll become a better person..I AM SO DETERMINED



i know it's kinda too late but..hey..nvm right..so here comes my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION>>

go church every sunday with my dear cousin melissa and if i have to work..i'll go there alone on my off days.write my diary there with a peaceful mind

be more determined decisive focus nice obedient appreciative understanding

give in to ppl

no vulgarities

think of others before thinking for myself

stay the same..dun change into a worse person..stay faithful to my papa mama and dear

not to be so picky

accept others

accept things and directions god has given me coz he knows what i deserve and wat's best for me
accept it and work hard on wat's given or paved for me.. =))


and of coz..be slim.. i wanna be weighing 43 kg!


so wish mi luck~! <33s

yet another long entry..kekes..

2nd jan 2006
went k-box lunch with jam julia and dear..had fun but sort of neglected my boy..sorry dear.

3rd jan 2006
my new wardrobe came..so pretty and gay~!

4th jan 2006
dear sick..went to accompany him.. =))

5th jan 2006
dear peii mi go sentosa for the tourism academy's seminar..jam supposed to come de but couldnt leave frm school..but it was ok..coz the seminar was bullshit..not meant for 16 yr old..only for those with a levels cert..bleahs~!

6th jan 2006
went to taka jewelry for interview..daddy brought mi there and waited for mi there..so sweet of him..but..didnt get the job..they said i was too young.. =((

7th jan 2006
nth happened..no happenings

8th jan 2006
ate lunch at home and headed out to dear's house..=))
it was pouring heavily k..for the whole day..slacked in his hse till dinner..went to had dinner with him n his mama.. =))

chanel invited mi to her bday bbq~! so happy and honoured~! she remembered mi!!! kekes..going with my boy..hahas..i'm so freaking excited about seeing her..the last time i saw her was in bugis..at the photo shop..and tt was like 2 yrs ago??.. i'm so happy and looking forward tto see her once more..this time must take a pic with herr~! i miss her dearly..

was watching the ren ci show last night..was kinda sad..when ming yi fa shi spoke..his words were so..i dono how to describe it..anyhow..i was touched by his words.. =)) and realised that i actually have a kind heart <3
coz i made phonecalls..althou i'm not the one paying..but it's the thot tt counts mah.. =))

no plans for today yet..we shall wait n see~!

HAPPIE NEW YEAR~!

just came home frm orchard..went there for dinner with hiim and bought my BSB concert tix!..i bought the $70 one..the $95 seats were so lousy..wasnt even facing the seat lohx..he is accompanying mi there..i'm so bloody excited~!

stayed over at his hse yesterday..sorrie jam..didnt stay over at urs coz i really vehh pai sehh and i scared i'm too noisy..mayb CNY i go bug yohh lohs.. =))

yesterday..i woke up..had lunch..went to melissa's house to print pictures of xiaoying n her bf so as to put into the picture frame i bought for her bday..heard she's got an expensive and pretty watch from her bf..so envious ok..

went home..bathed..wrapped up the pressie..packed my stuff n headed out..it was pouring heavily..methim at clementi central..played pool with him n went home..slacked n was looking for places to go..went to central to mit peenis to check out k-box price which was so damn expensive can..
went to play pool..i tell u..i lost every single round~!so throw face..lols..

actually wanna go singing de..den almost wanted to go chiong with ah wee..but hell no..



ah wee brought a slut with him..i dunch care..there's no other words tt i can call her..bloody shit k..
my bf bought a big cup of water..aft smoking she asked if still got water den my bf said dunch have..so obvious tt there's now water lo..when my bf was actually eating the ice in the cup..so she was asking the obvious lohs..nvm..she took the cup and ate ice frm the same spot my bf put his lips at!and give mi tt look..aft tt..she was like so pushy..pushing the cup back to my bf when he already said he dun want..pls lahs..dun want le u still so bloody bu yao lian for wat??..NEH NEH!the whole grp there also not her friend or wat lohs..buey pai sehh meh..drink ppl's drink..CB~!

wandered around..wasnt tt angry until they were about to go chiong and she asked my bf whether he's going not..he going not also not her farking business lohs..den say byebye to my bf..fark her lahs..and my insensitive bf still waved her byebye..even aft knowing tt i bloody and farking hate her to the core le..so i got fed up with him..only aft we went home..coz i kinda forgot abt it half way..

we went home coz really dono where to head for..seriously..i was disappointed..coz i'll have to wait a long time to ton at his hse again..went home..did nth..den suddenly i remembered tt i was angry..so..we quarrelled coz he kept defending himself..

if she's ur friend or ah wee's gf..u wave bye nvm lohs..but who the fark is she to you???u scared ur friends think u dao..den no nid care abt how i feel when i already told u i hate her le lohs..now she must be thinking u are the one who will be willing to flirt with her..proving tt she's prettier and can get u lohs..fark~!

well..he was so angry yest lohs..angry wat??i'm supposed to be angry lohs...was really terrible..and i felt vehh guilty for creating so much chaos..but i just nv felt so threatened b4..felt as thou he wasnt loyal to mi..not faithful..if it's mi..i wun even be bothered abt tt person lo..if u tell mi u haate tt person..but u didnt care..still so friendly towards her..felt like i'll be losing him to a much prettier and slimmer girl..haiis..farking hate this feeling lahs


he gaved in n i ren cuo..den u no nid mehhs??morning wake up like nth happen..back to normal..cant u do things to make mi feel more secured??didnt want to tell tis to u coz scared u stressed or wat lohs..aft each quarrel..i expect even more frm u..now..thinking abt wat happen..i still feel he's in the wrong lohs..i'll nv forget wat happen last night de..made mi feel tt u're just like any other guy..who simply also like girls to flirt with u..makes u feel attractive right??..haiis..u dun seem to belong to mi anymore


althou everything appears to be ok..when we're together..but when i'm alone..i'm being reminded of what happened and just cant seem to forgive u..i know u've tried to make mi feel better..mayb it's just not enough for mi..i feel so damn zi bei now!feel like breaking down now but who will ever care??u just slp..yes.tired slp mah..u nv go think abt wat happened lohs..just slp..i cant get to slp now..everything just appears b4 mi lohs..just felt like u're just like other guys..will nv say no to other girls





dont wish to blame youu but i just cant help it..when i'm alone..i see ur mistakes appear b4 mi..u just dont give mi the feeling tt i'm the only one in ur world..so wat if u always said tt?last night was an evidence le..althou u didnt mean it..it means it's already in you..to not to be extra careful with my feelings..haiis..u dont make me feel important and significnt nor needed..maybe tt's y..i show more love to jam..and not u..coz she shows mi her care n love..and makes mi feel imp..unlike u..just feel so insignificant when i'm with u..last night's matter proved mi right..u must be saying to urself..den be with jam lahhs..but cant u see?i only love you and i just nid u..i just nid u to show ur love towards mi more openly..not only when we're abt to break..it'll be too late one day if i really mean to break with u lohs..too late..





jamie..thnx for ur blog stuff..i feel so needed and significant..the feeling i've nv felt for a long time now..i feel so important..u made mi feel so confident of our future friendship together~! i so love youu..promise to share ur woes with mi in future..i may not be a gd listener but i sure do care..just duno how to express it to u..may not be a good advisor but hey..at least i advise u rite.other ppl u think i care mehh????.. =))
i also noe i cant console ppl..but i've really tried my best when it comes to consoling u..god took a best friend of mine away..only to bring mi a better best friend..which is u..i'm sure..memories with gladys were created over time..u n mi will have better memories too.coz i believe our friendship lifespan will be much longer..=)).. thou i tend to neglect u for hiim but i hope u'll noe tt i do neglect him for u too..i've always tried my very best to be by ur side just like how u were towards mi.. <3
love u lots